Weightloss Survey

In an effort to cure my boredom and for anyone who reads my blog to get to know me a bit better :)

Age: 16

CW: 55kgs/121lbs

Height: 5’7”

BMI: 18.9

GW: 50kgs/110lbs

UGW: 45kgs/99lbs

Favorite Diet Food: Cucumber, carrot, hummus and my newly found slimpasta

Favorite Binge Food: Pasta, bread, potato, basically any form of carbohydrate :/

Favorite exercise: Long walks, bicycling, pilates, cardio

Does anyone know? I don’t think so

What makes you slip up: Staying up late, family get-togethers and being bored, upset or stressed.

What makes you strong: Thinspo, talking to other people with similar goals, staring at my fat in the mirror and wanting to get rid of it.

When did it start: Around 4 years ago

What do you see when you look in the mirrors: Fat, pudgy, jelly bits, cellulite. Everything is wrong.

Is it for attention: No, I would rather people not know.

Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: I don’t really have a ‘group’ of friends, but I guess I’m thinner or in the middle.

Are you depressed: I’ve never been diagnosed, but I have my days

Ever tried to commit suicide:  Twice

Ever cut yourself: Yes

Ever been to a psychologist: No

Lost weight: Yes

Gained weight: Yes

Do you drink: Not usually. If I’m really sad or miserable I do sometimes.

Do you smoke: No

Do you take drugs: No

Does your weight affect your mood: Yes

Do you weigh yourself daily: Usually or every second day. I only record it once a week though because it changes too often daily.

Have you ever fasted: Yes

Have you ever skipped a meal: Yes

Have you ever spit food out: Yes

I am—

[] Anorexic
[] EDNOS 
[] Bulimic 
[] living off diet pills 
[] hungry 
[X] drinking something 
[] eating something 
[] under 100 lbs 
[X] starving myself 
[] vegan 
[x] vegetarian

People…

[x] ask if i’m anorexic/bulimic 
[] call me fat 
[x] say i’m skinny 
[] say i’m ugly 
[x] talk about me behind my back 
[x] force me to eat 
[] say i eat too much 
[] wish I’d eat more 
[] don’t know i’m anorexic/bulimic 
[] have tried to stop me

I wish…

[x] I was thin 
[x] i had a better body 
[x] i didn’t have to eat 
[x] i could control myself 
[X] i could avoid food 
[] i could hide what i am 
[x] i was prettier 
[x] i could disappear

I love…

[X] being hungry 
[x] seeing a difference 
[] shaking 
[] being weak 
[x] losing weight 
[] being anorexic/bulimic 
[x] green tea 
[] diet pills 
[x] being able to turn down food 
[x] feeling good about myself

Appearances…

[] I’m shorter than 5’4 
[x] think i’m ugly 
[X] have self made scars 
[] have a tattoo 
[x] wear glasses 
[x] been told i’m pretty by a stranger 
[] have more than 2 piercings 
[] have piercings besides my ears 
[] have freckles 
Cup size is (A) (B) (C) (D) (E) 
[X] am petite (Apparently)

I hate…

[x] when people stare 
[x] being asked questions 
[x] having to eat 
[x] being single
[x] wearing short skirts 
[x] being fat 
[x] looking ugly 
[x] feeling this way

I need…

[x] people to stay out of my business 
[] more friends
[] someone to know 
[x] less food 
[] more water 
[x] gym membership 
[] to lose 30 lbs 
[x] to lose 20 lbs 
[] to lose 10 lbs 
[] to lose 5 lbs