The secret door to my internal struggles. It's a dark battle and it's never going to be won. At least not by me.

Tag: fasting

One Day.

Yesterday- Fasting, diet cokes, cigarettes

Today- Food, diet cokes, cigarettes, laxatives

One day I’m going to have a normal day that I don’t feel guilty about. One day.

I’m so hungry …

I’m so hungry :( Why can’t thin just come to me naturally?

Day Two

Another successful day of fasting :) Today was more difficult mind you. Once I break the barrier of hunger this should be so much easier.




I seem to have …

I seem to have spent my entire day drinking herbal tea and looking at thinspo, instead of working on the pile of assignments that I have due in two days. Go me!

29th August- Day Two

Wow, I’m feeling so light-headed :/ If I cave before Friday I’m going to be so disappointed in myself.

Stay strong and starve on! I have to keep reminding myself, you don’t get thin and food together. It’s one or the other.

28th August, 2012

I ate nothing today. Just tea and exercise :)

Oh Shit.

I was just told that we have friends coming over for a ‘casual take-away dinner’. I know that I won’t binge because my mind and willpower is as strong as hell right now, but I was supposed to be fasting today on account that I know I probably can’t on Saturday or Sunday. Also the ‘take-away’ part of it implies that it’s going to be some junky crap which I won’t want to eat, so hopefully I can get out of that and just stir-fry some vegetables and say that I ate a lot after school. This is not how I wanted to start my weekend at all.




Gives me the worst headaches :/