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Fuck Yes!

Weighing yourself after you’ve just eaten your weight in fruit and cereal and still being three kilos lighter than when you last weighed yourself. I’m happy :D


Was a good day :) I did a huge amount of walking, had a small tabbouleh salad for lunch, two corn thins and some stir-fried spicy vegetables for dinner. Now just to keep this up for the next few months!

Thin & Happy

Thin & Happy

Happy Days

No food today :)

Food Log: 10/08/2012

B-  Nil

L-  Nil

D-  Vegetable Stir-fry (124)  Apple (60)

S-  Blueberries (61)  2 Corn Thins (46) 1 small Mandarin (19)

Total: 310

I took my dog on an hour long walk aswell so I would say that I’m quite happy with today :)

Success! Yay!

I wasn’t remotely hungry, but I made a bowl of stir-fried veggies to keep my parents happy. I felt like I was going to explode when I had finished, but it would have been lucky to have been over 100 calories.

I’m going out tomorrow so that will be around 3 hours of walking aimlessly between shops and through the city gardens, plus I’m going just before lunchtime so I’m going to say that I ate a big lunch while I was out and try my hardest to avoid dinner. If I can’t though I’ll just do what I did tonight. 53kgs is so close, so so close. If I keep at it like this I can easily be there by the end of this week.

I had a moment last night when I remembered being stuck at 57kgs and wishing that I was plateaued at 55. Now I keep going back and forth between 54 and 55 and it’s driving me insane. It just shows how I probably will never be happy with my weight.

Good Moods, they seem to come ever so rarely now…

Today started out pretty crappy because of my stressful maths exam, but with that out of the way it turned out to be quite good :)  I think I feel happy, though I can’t really tell because honestly, I don’t think that I put the right names to my emotions. Anyway, everything seems to be going reasonably well for me now and I’m hoping that it continues that way for at least a week. I’m just going to keep drinking green tea and press on!


My friend told me that I look like I’m getting thinner everyday.

You better bloody hope that I am.

If other people are starting to notice it can only mean one thing. That I’m actually doing something right for once :)

Helloooo Thigh Gap!!

I just put my jeans on (which I haven’t worn in around two weeks because they made me feel fat) and I have a thigh gap!! An obvious, beautiful thigh gap! :’)  Now to make it even more obvious!

And I’m Back in the Game!!

I don’t know what was up with me yesterday; if it was just water weight or if I’m a God who can just manage to drop two kilograms in one day even though I ate a huge amount of food. I’m leaning more towards the first option though. Anyway, guess who is officially back at 55kgs?!?! That would be me! :D