The secret door to my internal struggles. It's a dark battle and it's never going to be won. At least not by me.

Tag: thin

The constant internal battle…

To eat, or not to eat.

Weird Feels

Wanting to eat, but knowing that you can’t.  Wanting to scream, but knowing that it will only exhaust you. Wanting to feel something, but knowing that the only thing I can ever feel is pain. Wanting to simply die, but knowing that it’s out of the question now. I just want to be skin and bones already. Why must I always feel this way?

I’m so hungry …

I’m so hungry :( Why can’t thin just come to me naturally?

Day Two

Another successful day of fasting :) Today was more difficult mind you. Once I break the barrier of hunger this should be so much easier.




Skinny lace

Skinny lace

29th August- Day Two

Wow, I’m feeling so light-headed :/ If I cave before Friday I’m going to be so disappointed in myself.

Stay strong and starve on! I have to keep reminding myself, you don’t get thin and food together. It’s one or the other.

28th August, 2012

I ate nothing today. Just tea and exercise :)