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Month: October, 2012

I’ve never wanted to die as much as I do right now.

Oh wait, I feel like this every single god damn night. Someone, please put me out of my misery, or just throw me a few packets of aspirin. That should do it.



It’s just come to my attention how much everything has changed for me since I was religiously blogging on here. I used to only care about managing to get through a day on no food or doing brutal amounts of exercise. Now not eating is just the norm for me, it’s barely a struggle because I hate food so damn much. My life now completely revolves around starving, binging/purging, cigarettes, cutting and drugs. I think I’m now a perfect example of what not to do. Ha I’m pretty much fucked until I die.