The secret door to my internal struggles. It's a dark battle and it's never going to be won. At least not by me.


I just came so close to telling my stepdad everything that is going on. Both my parents keep blaming my best friend. I have a horrible feeling that I’m going to crumble and tell them, then end up in a crazy hospital somewhere.

These severe lo…

These severe lows are starting to get the better of me. I’m scared of what they might make me do. I almost got hit by two cars this afternoon because I didn’t look before I crossed. Not because I didn’t think to, but because I didn’t care. I actually hoped that they had hit me. God, I wish that they had. I want to die. I”m not meant for this world.

I feel so vague…

I feel so vague and absent today. I’m completely numb.