What am I even doing?!

by Perpetual Slumber

I have no clue anymore. My goals and dreams of what I want for my future are diminishing, I just want to sleep all of the time and any spare time that I have is now spent looking at recipes on the internet of food that I wish I could eat, but know that even one mouthful of it would ruin all of my progress and merely make things worse. I just want to be skinny!!  I’m tired of being fat, tired of fasting, tired of feeling guilty everytime I eat, tired of working out, tired of avoiding my family, tired of hiding food that I’ve supposedly ‘eaten’ in my room and most importantly I’m bloody tired of not being able to get under 55kgs! I JUST WANT TO BE THIN! It isn’t that much to ask for!