If only she knew…

by Perpetual Slumber

I was talking to my best friend on the phone earlier, who used to have an eating disorder around the same time as me, and she started telling me how she’s been losing weight by eating mainly salad this week. She says that she’s really happy because she knows that her eating disorder isn’t back because she isn’t scared to eat chocolate or other indulgent foods. Meanwhile I’m thinking, “If only you knew what I’ve been doing for the past month. If only you knew how much even salad scares me. If only you knew how beautiful my bones are beginning to look.”                    I need more friends who think the same way that I do, apart from Ana and Mia of course.